ShaunI've made myself feel unwelcome I've also disappeared along with those words I let slip from my lips and into your welcoming ear, to your heart where it rested for days on end until the day you said goodbye, and buried them so deep.. without rememberance of what once was The silence on the other end is deafening, and now you know how it feels to be let go without a fight. And these words, these "I love yous" are no longer present. The sky that held all our dreams, has disappeared along with me. And I dont mean to make things worse, I was never very good at comShaun
That sharp momentin your eyes in that sharp moment when all things had to end and we bend our sobbing throats just to watch them wash away i saw the pain i saw the hurt and i saw the mirrors in your heart and how the tarnish in your dreams had made what i saw more beautiful with it ruin. because we went in with blind eyes and covered hearts and now after the storm we are dripping wet, dirty, and our hearts exposed to the light not afraid, nor too proud to kneel nor too weak to face the sun to let the heart of heaven bleed on our faces soon we willThat sharp moment
Memories floating aroundIts been a year since I watched her soul lift up from her body.. a year since I held that delicate hand in mine.. a year since that delicate hand went cold, and numb in mine. I was with her until the end, I was laying beside her as she took that last breath.. I felt her heartbeat get slower.. and slower.. until it didn't beat anymore. I remember hearing it get so quiet in the room, I remember the words she spoke to me.. her last words. Only I know them.. and it's going to stay that way because they're MY words. I don't want them to be anyone elses. I layed there clenching her hand, with my head resting on her chest.. telling her I love her..Memories floating around
I'm stuck in this... dream, this.. haunting dream, and I'm not quite sure how to escape it. Fight this, fight that.. make it through the jungle.. the jungle for me is my thoughts, and my thoughts are like barbed wire that scrape beneath my skin as I tread through.
I'm here, but you're no longer there.. I guess I lost you along the way. But you know, I'm fine on my own. I have the stars and my dreams to guide me.. I no longer need you, maybe I never did need you.
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